Uncover our hiddenness

“God did not send his Son into the world to judge and condemn the world, but to be its Savior and rescue it.  So now there is no longer any condemnation for those who believe in him, but the unbeliever already lives under condemnation because they do not believe in the name of God’s beloved Son. And here is the basis for their judgment: The Light of God has now come into the world, but the hearts of people love their darkness more than the Light, because they want the darkness to conceal their evil. So the wicked hate the Light and try to hide from it, for their lives are fully exposed in the Light. But those who love the truth will come out into the Light and welcome its exposure, for the Light will reveal that their fruitful works were produced by God.” John 3:17-21 TPT

I have been meditating on these verses a lot lately. How God sent Jesus into the world to rescue us, not to judge and condemn us, yet we are still hiding out in the darkness, hiding our true selves away, afraid to step out into the light because we do not like what is hidden in our heart and we are still afraid of what God might think of us. He came to rescue us from these very feelings so why are we still afraid?

Everyone wants to be fully known and fully seen, to feel valued, important and worthy of love and affection. We long to have someone know our hearts intimately, even the messy parts and still choose to love every part of us.

God designed us for intimacy. Intimacy is into me you see. It is having an uncovered heart, free from fear and shame and every part of you is fully known and fully seen. To be completely ourselves and not live with the fear that we are going to be judged or condemned for how we really feel or how we think.

Even though we long to be known and seen and that God has actually designed us for intimacy we don’t actually live this way. We are still hiding bits of our self, we are afraid of what He may see if we truly open up, so we stay in the dark and cover up the things that are messy or scary. By doing this we are missing out on the power of true vulnerability with Him.

We must remember, the light of God has now come into the world, and we must move our hearts from hiding in the darkness to living in the Light. We need to uncover our hiddenness. God wants to know us, every part of us, but He is waiting for us to invite Him in so that He can see what is really going on in our hearts. Not so that He can judge us for it but so that He can help us mend our hearts.

Being open and vulnerable with God is so powerful because it helps us to walk in freedom from our shame and freedom from lies that we may believe about our self. He will take all the mess and turn all the chaos of our hearts into order.

Vulnerability with God will actually move us out of sin and into freedom but we need to push past the discomfort of vulnerability and have some open and honest conversations with God.

Come out into the light and welcome its exposure. Allow God to search and know your heart and throw off the shame that you may be holding on to and find comfort in God’s words. Find comfort in His truth over your life about who you are and who you were created to be. His words of life and love will empower you into more freedom to be fully yourself.


Longing for breakthrough…

To be honest with you, at the beginning of the year I wasn’t too excited about the year ahead. I held God’s promises in one hand and my problems and fears in the other. I was focusing too much on the fears and problems and had forgotten to focus on my promises from God and all the good that He can do this year.

When you stare at your fears and problems too much then hope for a bright future fades. I needed a breakthrough. I have prayed so many times for breakthrough but what I have discovered is that you cannot just sit back and wait for something to happen, you have to start making changes yourself.

When I need a breakthrough I look for where Jesus is. I look back on my life and see where Jesus was in the hard times. He did not leave me then and He won’t leave me now. I try to stay focused on the ways that God has come through for me in the past and not on the problems or fears that are before me right now.

I make sure that I have a thankful heart. I make a list of the things that I am thankful for and I mediate on them often.

I surround myself with happy and life giving people, even when I don’t feel like it. Hanging around people who breathe life into me, who inspire hope and courage help to lift me up.

I have to remind myself that the circumstances that I find myself in right now will not last forever. This season will end.

I refuse to partner with any thought that doesn’t inspire hope in my life. I have the mind of Christ, so I should not allow any thought in my mind that isn’t in His. I must take captive my thoughts, filter them through hope, and refuse to listen to the ones that bring death and not life.

And I remind myself that everything works out for good in the end. So if it isn’t good, then it isn’t the end (Romans 8:28).

If you feel a lack of hope going into this year, then I encourage you to not let go of God’s promises for your life in the midst of your problems. Instead of focussing on your fears and your problems, take some time to imagine all the good that God can do this year. If you are longing for breakthrough then don’t sit back and wait, start making some changes today.

Redefining success

The world tells us that being successful in life is all about fame, wealth and social status. It is all about how much money you’re making, how many ‘toys’ you have acquired and how much influence you have.

These are the world’s standards for success but I do not believe that they are the standards of the Kingdom. I think success runs much deeper than fame, wealth and social status. I think that success is being faithful to do the things that God has called you to do and to do them well.

In 1 John 2 verses 15 to 17 in The Message translation it says…

Don’t love the world’s ways. Don’t love the world’s goods. Love of the world squeezes out love for the Father. Practically everything that goes on in the world—wanting your own way, wanting everything for yourself, wanting to appear important—has nothing to do with the Father. It just isolates you from him. The world and all its wanting, wanting, wanting is on the way out—but whoever does what God wants is set for eternity.

When we chase down the worlds view of success we are losing sight of the things and the person that really matters the most. The love of the world’s success squeezes out the love for the Father and puts distance between our hearts and His.

So what is it that the Father really wants from us to be successful in life?

I believe that He wants us to love well. To really love, care for and honour those people who are around us. He longs for us to be intimately connected with Him and to partner with His truth.

I believe that He wants us to be obedient to what He is saying. The Lord is always speaking and He is looking for people who are listening and who are willing to step out boldly and courageously and do what He is asking us to do. It is not the outcome that He is focused on but just the fact that we were obedient and trusted His voice.

I believe that He wants us to steward well what He has given to us. Be faithful with the things that He has given to us whether they are a little or a lot. With the money we are blessed with to use it wisely, give to the needy, and sow into the kingdom. With the spiritual gifts He has given us to grow them, develop them and use them. With the people in our life to love them, serve them and protect them. We need to be faithful with the things that He has given to us.

I believe that He wants us to be thankful. To cultivate a heart of thankfulness so that no matter what is happening in or around us we can still choose joy and be thankful for what we do have and what is happening.

I believe that He wants us to persevere and finish well. To not give up when things get tough but to lean closer into God and to see the trials before us as a chance to grow and build character.

I believe that He wants us to be present and live in the here and now so that we can receive the fullness of what He has planned for us in each moment. To be focused in on the vision for our life, being focused on the vision will give our process and pain a purpose.

We all long to be successful in life but we need to stop measuring our success by the worlds standards. I encourage you to redefine your view of success, ask God how He wants to change some of your thinking in this area so that you can be successful in the things He has called you to.

Taking your thoughts captive

Our inner thoughts, the things we silently speak over ourselves day in and day out, are very powerful. They shape the way we see our self, how we see other people and how we see the world around us.

If you stopped and really thought about the things that you were silently speaking over yourself, what would they sound like? Are they negative or positive? When I stopped and really listened to what I was speaking over myself I came to realise that my thoughts towards myself were mostly negative and very destructive.

I would think to myself If I messed up then I would think that I am a failure, if I did not do what I said that I was going to do therefore I am unreliable, if I did not reveal the whole truth about myself them I am a liar.

In doing this I am convincing myself that I am my behaviour. My behaviour then becomes my identity, I failed therefore I AM a failure. There is no grace in my thinking, I believe that I am a failure so then I no longer step out and take risks. I live with shame over my first failure and have anxiety over failing once again.

In my thinking I have believed a lie about myself and I have condemned myself to living a life that is way below the life that I was created for.

I love this quote from Bill Johnson… “We can’t afford to have a thought in our head that isn’t His”.

The negativity and self-doubt thoughts that are in our heads are not what God actually thinks about us. We cannot let the lies that we believe about ourselves take root in our thoughts and in our minds. We must learn how to recognize Gods thoughts about us.

The lies we believe about ourselves attack our identity. We need to build a foundation of truth, Gods truth. What does it say in the word? What is it that God thinks? What is on His mind?  The truth He speaks aligns with the bible and affirms us as His sons and daughters.

I encourage you to take some time with Holy Spirit and let Him search your thoughts. Take note of the lies that you have been speaking over yourself and then hand them over to God and let Him speak the truth over you. Write the truth down and meditate on it everyday. Meditate on it until it becomes your thoughts about yourself and be free to live the life that you were created for.

Live fully alive

Sometimes I feel like I am living my life on a hamster wheel. Going around and around, doing the same things day in and day out. When somebody asks me how my week was I draw a blank, I know I have lived life but nothing extraordinary has stood out to me in my week. We are all still alive, we got through the school week and here we are back at the weekend again where we are supposed to recover so that we can do the same old stuff all over again next week.

If I were to describe my life as a colour it would be grey. There are little glimpses of colour here and there but mostly it just feels grey. I found myself hoping for the future, looking forward to the “some days”. Some day I am going to write that book that I secretly desire to write, some day I am gong to travel again, some day I am going to get out and enjoy our beautiful city, and the list of some day dreams go on and on and on.

I grew up singing the history maker songs and believing that I was going to change the world but I do not feel very close to that dream at all. I know that I have a God-given identity and destiny and a divine purpose but when does that all begin? Here and now in this grey life?

I have come to realise that I was waiting for life to begin, for the mundane of my day to give way to a more adventurous life. But what if some day never arrives? There will always be the regular day-to-day things that I have to do; will I let life keep me from living? And life is pretty beautiful right now so what makes me yearn for more than I already have?

I could try and blame all my yearning “for more” on the world of today and it’s highlight reels on instagram and facebook, but playing the blame game achieves nothing. I must own my own thoughts, feelings and reactions and grab a hold of them and set them onto the right path.

Our destiny is not just a place where we arrive at; where we say I am here, now let the living begin. Our destiny is actually the journey; it is an adventure full of possibilities, potential, and promise.

If you feel like your life is a shade of grey right now then my advice is this, do not wait for your life to begin, live fully alive right here right now. Live intentionally.

Living intentionally is so important on this journey of fulfilling our destiny. Every day we make choices and we can choose to embrace life right now, even if the current season we are in seems impossible or terribly dull. Living intentionally means being present in your everyday. Slow down, take time to breath in and see the beauty in the every day.

See life as an adventure, even when it’s not perfect. Do things you enjoy everyday. Find the time to walk, rest, read, spend time with a special someone. Whatever it is that makes you smile and brings joy to your heart, find the time to do it.

Accept where you are; don’t look to someone else’s season with envy. You are where you are. Ask for God’s wisdom in your season if you need a shift

Cultivate a heart of gratitude. We need to have hope even when things seem hopeless.

Build intimacy with God. Have a solid foundation and identity in God, don’t define your value based on whether you can overcome a challenge or not. Find value and victory in God and when you do face problems ask the Lord for heaven’s solution to them.

No matter where you find yourself in life, there will always be more things to learn and more obstacles to overcome but we have to learn to live in the here and now, to grab a hold of our God-given identities and our divine purposes and live them out.

Don’t wait for your life to begin, live fully alive right now. Look at your heart position and allow the Holy Spirit to reveal the thinking that does not align with His, ask Him to show you the colour where you see the grey.