Live fully alive

Sometimes I feel like I am living my life on a hamster wheel. Going around and around, doing the same things day in and day out. When somebody asks me how my week was I draw a blank, I know I have lived life but nothing extraordinary has stood out to me in my week. We are all still alive, we got through the school week and here we are back at the weekend again where we are supposed to recover so that we can do the same old stuff all over again next week.

If I were to describe my life as a colour it would be grey. There are little glimpses of colour here and there but mostly it just feels grey. I found myself hoping for the future, looking forward to the “some days”. Some day I am going to write that book that I secretly desire to write, some day I am gong to travel again, some day I am going to get out and enjoy our beautiful city, and the list of some day dreams go on and on and on.

I grew up singing the history maker songs and believing that I was going to change the world but I do not feel very close to that dream at all. I know that I have a God-given identity and destiny and a divine purpose but when does that all begin? Here and now in this grey life?

I have come to realise that I was waiting for life to begin, for the mundane of my day to give way to a more adventurous life. But what if some day never arrives? There will always be the regular day-to-day things that I have to do; will I let life keep me from living? And life is pretty beautiful right now so what makes me yearn for more than I already have?

I could try and blame all my yearning “for more” on the world of today and it’s highlight reels on instagram and facebook, but playing the blame game achieves nothing. I must own my own thoughts, feelings and reactions and grab a hold of them and set them onto the right path.

Our destiny is not just a place where we arrive at; where we say I am here, now let the living begin. Our destiny is actually the journey; it is an adventure full of possibilities, potential, and promise.

If you feel like your life is a shade of grey right now then my advice is this, do not wait for your life to begin, live fully alive right here right now. Live intentionally.

Living intentionally is so important on this journey of fulfilling our destiny. Every day we make choices and we can choose to embrace life right now, even if the current season we are in seems impossible or terribly dull. Living intentionally means being present in your everyday. Slow down, take time to breath in and see the beauty in the every day.

See life as an adventure, even when it’s not perfect. Do things you enjoy everyday. Find the time to walk, rest, read, spend time with a special someone. Whatever it is that makes you smile and brings joy to your heart, find the time to do it.

Accept where you are; don’t look to someone else’s season with envy. You are where you are. Ask for God’s wisdom in your season if you need a shift

Cultivate a heart of gratitude. We need to have hope even when things seem hopeless.

Build intimacy with God. Have a solid foundation and identity in God, don’t define your value based on whether you can overcome a challenge or not. Find value and victory in God and when you do face problems ask the Lord for heaven’s solution to them.

No matter where you find yourself in life, there will always be more things to learn and more obstacles to overcome but we have to learn to live in the here and now, to grab a hold of our God-given identities and our divine purposes and live them out.

Don’t wait for your life to begin, live fully alive right now. Look at your heart position and allow the Holy Spirit to reveal the thinking that does not align with His, ask Him to show you the colour where you see the grey.

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Fear

Fear had been telling me what to do. It kept me standing in my own little safety zone, never allowing me to step out into the unknown. Fear would tell me that out in the unknown there is quite possibly pain, rejection, hurt, embarrassment and who knows what else. Fear fed me lies and kept me afraid and staying exactly where I was in my safety zone.

I heard someone say that you need to chase down your fears and at first I thought that it just sounded crazy. Why would I want to run after the things that make me afraid? And then it got me to thinking; fear is not from God so it just may be the enemy. Satan is the father of lies (John 8:44) and he feeds me lies and keeps me in a state of fear and that fear stands in the way of me stepping into the things that God has for me. It keeps me from Gods ultimate plan for my life.

Last year we entered into the world of Foster Care and became Foster parents. Fear had held me back before, feeding me lies of it is going to be hard to get registered, it will be too hurtful to see what the children have gone through, it will be too hard to let go, too hard to love them as your own. The enemy had me right where he wanted me, staying right where I was and doing nothing at all to love the least of these. But we felt the fear and did it anyway.

Fear is still a part of my life but I am learning not to let it tell me what to do anymore. I am chasing down my fears, stepping into the things that make me afraid, and it is there that I learn to overcome fear.

Stepping out and facing your fear leads to intimacy with the Lord, another thing that the enemy tries to keep you from. That is where we need God the most; we lean on Him the most, listen to Him the most, trust Him the most. All of these things create a stronger connection with the Lord. The Holy Spirit comes and fills us with His power and courage to do the things that make us afraid.

What could happen if regular people like you and me got filled with God’s Spirit and carried His power and courage? The world around us couldn’t help but be impacted and changed for the better. What if we all felt the fear and did the brave and courageous things anyway?

I want to encourage you with this verse—Joshua 1:9 says, “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”

Hold onto this verse and breathe in the courage, let it soak into your spirit and let it rise within your heart and then chase down your fears one by one.

Hang in there warriors

I recently shared with a dear friend of mine my feelings of weariness. She began to pray and interceed for me and she sent me these beautiful words. They encouraged me so much that I had to share them with you…

…She is weary, weary of body, weary of spirit and weary of heart. She is weary not from corporate battles or legal wrangles, she is not weary from pursuing her right in life, or adding to her career. Her weariness does not come from over exertion in pursuit of a firm body or from pursuing her own lifestyle goals.

Her wariness comes from the front line battle; she is a weary warrior, a warrior on the front line. My friend stands with a directive from the King, her armour on, her sword at the ready, her stance defensive and…. she does the washing, cooks dinner and loves the little people God has brought into her life.

To all appearances my friend looks like the mother of young children, but in reality, God’s Supernatural Reality, she is a destiny bender, a generation changer and one of the scariest warriors the enemy has every faced.

She is a mum.

And with every act of kindness when she is overwhelmed, and far beyond herself, she brakes enemy strong holds. With every deep breath, followed by a word of wisdom supplied by Grace she is shaping and moulding the next dynamic generation of Gods Kingdom people. With every sacrifice of self, she robs the enemy of what he wants most – hurt, alone and damaged children.

She is laying down of her own life, for her children. She gives up so much, so much of herself, her needs, her wants, her time, her energy and she does this to impact tomorrow, and SHE IS impacting tomorrow beyond even what she is aware of. Her daily tasks are having eternal consequences with heavenly rewards.

Hang in there my warrior friend, your story has not stalled, it is not lost amongst the piles of dishes and baskets of dirty laundry. In fact you are at the climax of your story, the part where everything matters most! You are in the battle, battle weary but not overcome, tired but not defeated, low but victorious….{written by Sian Birch}

Hang in there warriors, you will be victorious!

Finding rest and strength

I am feeling very weary at the moment. As a mother of four young children I guess that is to be expected! But I think that my weariness is much more than just feeling tired. I need to find rest and by rest I do not just mean that I need more sleep but I need to come to a place of rest in my spirit.

My season shifted at the beginning of the year. I felt like my previous season was interrupted. I was going one way and then all of a sudden I find myself in a completely different place. My interruption was a good interruption but what I am finding difficult is that I am in a totally different place to where I thought I was going to be.

I am trying to live like I am still in my previous season and it is making me grow weary. I found that I was striving to keep up. I was comparing and measuring myself to a benchmark that I am just not going to achieve right now. My season has changed and so now my perspective of myself and where I am needs to change too.

In order to find the peace and rest in my spirit that I am looking for I need to understand the season that I am in right now. I have to understand that I cannot measure myself against the work that I produced in my previous season. I have to stop striving and stop comparing.

I have to accept the time and the place that I am in. God has given me the grace to walk this season and I need to choose to not worry about the things that I may have walked away from or worry about the things to come. God is faithful and all that He has for me will come all in His perfect timing.

There is beauty in each and every season so I am trying to embrace the place that I am in right now until the shift to the new season comes.

If my story speaks to you, if you too are struggling with feeling weary then I pray that you will find strength and rest in the Lord. That you will gain clarity in your spirit for the season that you are in and if you are carrying any burdens that do not belong to you that they will fall from your shoulders. I speak life, courage and hope in to you. In Jesus name, Amen.

Comparison

Recently I was experiencing a lack of joy in a relationship. It occurred to me that I had let unhealthy thoughts creep in to my mind once again. Comparison being the number one unhealthy thought. Just when I think I have the whole comparing thing nailed on the head, it comes back around again.

I was comparing myself to someone else. The way I looked, my home, my family, my gifts, my abilities. I was putting myself down, having a little pitty party as to why I did not have the things or gifts and abilities that they did. Comparison is the thief of joy.

I was focusing on what I did not have instead of what I do have. In that moment of me comparing myself to someone else I had believed that God had cheated me. That somehow God had missed giving me something special when He created me and instead He gave it to somebody else. Now I would never say that about God but when I compare myself to others that is what I am doing.

I find that comparison comes from insecurity in my own life. As soon as I start comparing myself to someone else I have to stop and realise that love needs to happen right there. To let God come into that part of me where I am really struggling or feeling inadequate and love me there. That I have to recognise that insecurity and invite God in to it and ask Him why I am struggling so much with it and how can I fix it.

Comparison is a waste of my time. The Lord really encouraged me to stop looking at other people and just focus on myself. There may always be someone in the world who is better than me at things I try and do… but I am the only me there is and God does not make mistakes and He did not forget to give me anything that I need. My identity and my value are that I am a daughter of God, pure and simple. That is what defines me; not what I think of myself or what the world may see me as but what God thinks.

So I am trying my hardest to stop comparing myself to others. I am opening my heart up to the Lord and letting His love come in and heal the hurting places inside of me and everyday I am reminding myself that I am a daughter of God and I am valuable in His eyes. I encourage you to do the same.