I am feeling very weary at the moment. As a mother of four young children I guess that is to be expected! But I think that my weariness is much more than just feeling tired. I need to find rest and by rest I do not just mean that I need more sleep but I need to come to a place of rest in my spirit.
My season shifted at the beginning of the year. I felt like my previous season was interrupted. I was going one way and then all of a sudden I find myself in a completely different place. My interruption was a good interruption but what I am finding difficult is that I am in a totally different place to where I thought I was going to be.
I am trying to live like I am still in my previous season and it is making me grow weary. I found that I was striving to keep up. I was comparing and measuring myself to a benchmark that I am just not going to achieve right now. My season has changed and so now my perspective of myself and where I am needs to change too.
In order to find the peace and rest in my spirit that I am looking for I need to understand the season that I am in right now. I have to understand that I cannot measure myself against the work that I produced in my previous season. I have to stop striving and stop comparing.
I have to accept the time and the place that I am in. God has given me the grace to walk this season and I need to choose to not worry about the things that I may have walked away from or worry about the things to come. God is faithful and all that He has for me will come all in His perfect timing.
There is beauty in each and every season so I am trying to embrace the place that I am in right now until the shift to the new season comes.
If my story speaks to you, if you too are struggling with feeling weary then I pray that you will find strength and rest in the Lord. That you will gain clarity in your spirit for the season that you are in and if you are carrying any burdens that do not belong to you that they will fall from your shoulders. I speak life, courage and hope in to you. In Jesus name, Amen.