This is my song at the moment. It is on repeat, I listen to it in the car, while I am pottering around the house, when I am working out or going for a walk and during my worship time. I love it and the reason I love it is for its lyrics.
From the head to the heart
You take me on a journey
Of letting go
And getting lost in you
There’s no shame
In looking like a fool
When I give you what I can’t keep
To take a hold of you
This is so me at the moment. I am going through a process of going from thinking and acting with my head to thinking and acting with my heart. My head has been stopping me from being the person I really am, the person who God has created me to be. My head is second guessing myself, it is telling me to be afraid of what people will think of me or say to me, it is letting in fear, worry and leading me to living a watered down and lukewarm life.
This song encourages me to get out of my head and to start living from my heart. I am on a journey of letting go and to start to live the way God has designed me to be.
There is no shame in letting go and living a life totally abandoned to the Lord but I had found myself becoming guarded. I was holding back on my personality, watching my words and watching my actions. Watering myself down. I was far from the person I was just a year ago who was totally abandoned and so in love with Jesus that it was simply overflowing out of me.
What I was suffering from was the fear of man. I know that so many of you out there will find that you too have this fear and can identify with me. We worry over what other people will think of us, what they might say to us or even say about us to other people. It seems so silly to be in my thirties and to still be worrying over what other people think of me like I used to do when I was a teenager but the enemy does not care how old I am. He will use whatever he can to derail me and to keep me from being the powerful person that God has created me to be, and this time his attack has come in the form of fear.
So with a gentle nudge from the Holy Spirit and some wise words from a sweet friend of mine who feels as though she is in the same place right now, I am trying to silence the unnerving thoughts in my head, to say no to the feelings of fear and I am trying to start to live from the heart, that place where I am so passionately in love with the Lord. I am trying to center myself in Him where all I can hear is His voice of encouragement, His words of wisdom, His love, strength, courage and peace flowing into my heart and then out again for the word to see.