Sometimes I find myself feeling a little broken. Life has left me feeling a little crushed, defeated and overwhelmed. It is not one thing that has left me feeling this way but a string of little things that have come across my path along my way.
I just feel like I need to be put back together, or mended before the hole in me gets any bigger. When I start to feel this way I make sure that I find the time to shut myself away and just spend time with the Lord. Before I run to a friend or to my husband to pour out my feelings and ask for their advice, I spend time with the Lord and listen to His words of wisdom first.
I see it as an invitation for the Lord to come deeper into my life. I see it as a chance for me to experience more healing, more freedom, more revelation and more intimacy with the Lord. And every time that I go to Him, I get just what I need.
I love these words from one of my favorite songs by United Pursuit. “when it falls apart, You come running with open arms”. Usually it feels like I am running to the Lord all the time but it is actually Him running to me. He delights in doing good for me and it is His greatest joy to do so. He delights in coming in and helping me to put all my pieces back together. It is up to me to let go of what I can not hold and to hold on to Him.
What I have discovered over time is that it is ok to feel broken and to admit that you feel that way, to admit that you don’t have it all together and that you are starting to come apart. There is no shame in admitting your weaknesses and you shouldn’t hide them either. It is not helpful in anyway to hide your feelings and to stuff all your pain deep down. Instead we should be trying to process it with the help of the Lord and the Holy Spirit.
By doing that it will help us to walk in His freedom that we talk about having in Christ. I know that I want to walk in His freedom so I am going to stop stuffing all my pain down and internalizing it and I am going to bring it to the surface and deal with it. I am going to let go of what I can not hold and hold onto Him.