Hold onto your hope

This is my song at the moment. I find myself in a season of waiting for my promises from the Lord to come to pass and this song just encourages me to hold onto my hope. When you get a promise from God it is beautiful, it is sweet and it gives you hope for your future but when you are in the waiting for that promise it is hard.

The waiting is where hope, trust and faith can be lost and abandoned. During this time we can either walk away from the Lord or we can lean in closer to Him, fix our eyes on Jesus, get on our knees before God and say I don’t understand this waiting but please help me to Lord. Please meet me in the waiting, let there be beauty in my time of waiting for my promises to come.

It is important to remember that promises that remain unfulfilled are still promises. God is faithful and they will come to pass and we need to hold onto our hope. In Habakkuk 2:2 it says Then the Lord replies “Write down the revelation and make it plain on tablets so that a herald can run with it. Writing down our promises helps us to hold onto our hope.

Whenever you hear from God, write down what He is telling you. Record the prophecies that are given to you and any word spoken over you. Underline those verses in the bible that speak so loudly and clearly to you. By doing this you will be reminded of what God is saying to you.

And then go over the words God has given to you and read them again and again. Go back over Gods promises until you see them begin to unfold in your life.  And then tell the testimonies of what the Lord has done in your life. This will help to encourage others while they are in their season of waiting as well. Your testimony points to Gods goodness and faithfulness, it helps to build our faith and our endurance. This is what holding onto your hope until your triumph unfolds looks like.

When the madness sets in


I was listening to the song Here Now by Hillsong United this morning and it felt very relevant to the feeling of despair that seems to be surrounding people at the moment.

I am not one to watch or listen to the news. When the news comes on the radio in the car I tend to hit the mute button as usually I have small children in the car who have sensitive ears and sensitive minds and hearts but the ‘news’ generally makes it to the feeds on my social media accounts. As hard as I try to avoid some current events they seem to find me and grab a hold of me.

I sense anger, desperation and hopelessness is filling the atmosphere at the moment, and when the song Here Now started to play through the headphones in my ears it made me stop and think that here lies a part of the answer to those feelings of madness and chaos that is swirling around at the moment.

… And my mind runs wild to comprehend what no mind on earth could understand…

We can often find ourselves in this position, our minds running wild to comprehend the things we are seeing and experiencing, but no mind on earth can understand. If only we could see from heavens perspective. If only we could have a glimpse into the future to when the madness has left us and to see ahead to the time when peace and joy reigns.

But we are in the here and now, where madness is all we can see and feel sometimes. So when the madness begins to set in we need to be still and to not join in on its crazy dance.

… Here now, all I know is I know that You are here now. Still my heart let Your voice be all I hear now. Spirit breathe like the wind come have Your way
Cause I know You’re in this place…

My mind can not comprehend some things but one thing that I know for sure is that I know that God is here now and I will still my heart and let His voice be all I hear. I will let His voice rise above all the other voices that I hear around me. His voice gives me the answers to my unanswered questions, His voice restores my faith, His voice restores my hope, my hope for a better here and now.

With my faith and hope restored I can rise above the madness that surrounds me. With the weight of the world no longer holding me down and the spirit breathing like the wind I can begin to pray, forecast hope, bring joy and shift the atmosphere.

I refuse to let the madness set in on me. Instead I will still my heart and let Gods voice be all that I hear. Spirit breathe, and like the wind come and have Your way because I know You’re in this place.


This is my song at the moment. I find myself singing it over and over again, declaring it over myself until I fully believe it.

It helps me to remember that in every season, and through all the changes that I may go through, God is always near. He gives me strength, He gives me peace and He is my anchor through every storm. God holds my world in the palm of His hand, where else would I want to be.

It reminds me to hold on to hope, to hold on to grace and to fully let go of everything that I am trying to hold on so tightly to and just surrender to His ways. For His ways are perfect, His timing is perfect and what He has for me is far better then anything that I could come up with on my own.

The more that I sing the words the more I believe in them. The more that I sing that He is the anchor for my soul and that He will never change, the more I believe it.

The more that I sing that His loving hand is always there to guide me, that He is my great redeemer and constant friend and that His mercy and grace always follows me, the more I believe it. Then I can begin to walk in the peace and freedom that those words bring.

I encourage you to listen to the song. The more that you listen and sing the words the more you will believe in them and they will become a comfort for your soul too. You can then begin to walk through your season in the peace and freedom that these words bring.

When all seems lost, we pray.

cslewis quoteThere are far too many tragic stories in our world. When I hear somebody’s sad and tragic story I feel helpless and just do not know what to say or do. I struggle to find the words to comfort them in their time of need and sometimes when I got to pray for them I am lost for words.

When I find myself not knowing what to do or what to pray I ask the Father what are you doing and what do you want me to do? How do you want me to pray? How do you want me to respond?

He already knows and sees and is heart broken also. We can go to God and pray with Him and bring heaven to earth. He has all the answers. We may not understand them but we have faith to know He has them. We don’t have to beg God to show His mercy, to show up or do something, He is already moving, listen and He will tell you.

This is how we can gain peace and understanding. This is how we can move on and reconcile our God as the loving Father we know Him to be.

Start to declare the opposite over these sad and tragic situations. Where there is hopelessness speak hope, where there is hate speak love, where there is turmoil speak peace. There is power in the spoken word and strongholds will be broken down.

He does not want us to become caught up in things that we can not change. Hopelessness will begin to enter into our hearts and the pit of despair becomes wider and deeper and harder to climb out of. He longs for us to trust Him, to know that He is a good Father and is moving even in situations that we don’t understand.

I love the quote above “it is not the load that breaks you down, it is the way you carry it”. Take your burdens to Jesus, He will carry them. He is our great intercessor, praying on our behalf. Give Him your load and take His peace instead.

The end of another year…


The end of another year is here, my thoughts begin to wander back over the events of this past year and I am amazed by all the things that have taken place in our lives. Our year began with quite a traumatic event in Greg having open heart surgery, Our little princess Emily had her first birthday, we finished renovating our little house by the sea, we packed up and moved to California and William began homeschooling.

This past year has taught me so much. I have learned to have great courage and faith even when I felt like my strength was failing. When Greg was going through his surgery in January I felt as though with one wrong turn my whole world could change forever. I was standing on a corner and I could chose to walk in two different directions. I could take the path marked suffering. A path where I could put up the white flag and say that I was done. Where my hope was left behind and my strength and courage buried in the sand. Or I could take the path marked faith. Where I could chose to stand firm and hold onto my hope. To have hope and faith in my God who is bigger than my circumstances and will uphold me no matter what the outcome may be.

I remember going to church just after Greg had his surgery but was still in hospital.  I remember standing there during worship with Emily on my hip and William by my side. We were singing the song Cornerstone. Singing the words Christ alone, cornerstone, weak made strong in the Savior’s love, through the storm, He is Lord Lord of all. When Darkness seems to hide His face, I rest on His unchanging grace. In every high and stormy gale, my anchor holds within the veil. Words that touched my heart more than they had ever touched me before.

Through this trial my faith was strengthened as friends and family gathered around us and supported us, encouraged us and lifted us up. I felt God close in on us, He was using these people as his divine messengers. They held me up when I no longer could support myself. They were the love of Christ in my life. My God loved me so much, He was my comforter and He provided for me and my family in our time of great need.

I have discovered the importance and power of community. How the people you are walking through this life with can be so valuable. These relationships are where strengths are exchanged. We bring peace to each others chaos, we lend each other strength and uphold one another. They know where you are going and they are going with you. They know your dreams and offer unconditional love and support as they help to launch you into your destiny, into what God has called you to be. I have also learned the value of serving in these relationships. To lay down my life to serve them, to take care of my community so that they are blessed. Serving others is more important then self serving.

I have learned to worship and sing praises always. To sing when I feel like giving up, to sing when I am feeling doubt, to sing when I feel all hope slipping away. There is power in words and what you declare will become. As I stand and sing the words weak made strong in the Savior love, so I will become. As I stand and sing You give life, You are love, You bring light to the darkness. You give hope, You restore every heart that is broken, Great are You, Lord; so He is.

And, most importantly in my journey this past year I have learned to look upon God as a loving father and not as some far off vengeful God who strikes fear in the heart of man. I have come close and seen Him for who He really is, God who is my comforter, who loves unconditionally and shows me his mercy’s everyday. My God who redeemed me, who paid the price for me so that I could walk in freedom and now I am learning how to walk in that freedom. Learning to love myself and see myself the way that my Heavenly Father sees me, to let go of my past – the fears and insecurities that once bound me and learning to walk in the light. Picking up who He created me to be and running with it.

I feel like this list is only a small selection of what I have learned this past year. You never stop learning, you never truly arrive at a destination where you can say that you have discovered all there is for you. Even though this is the end of a calendar year I still feel like I am in the same season which will probably keep on going until we finish up our time here in California. When that time comes who knows where we will be and what we will be doing and learning. One thing I do know is that I am very excited for that next chapter in our lives to begin.