This is my song at the moment. I find myself singing it over and over again, declaring it over myself until I fully believe it.

It helps me to remember that in every season, and through all the changes that I may go through, God is always near. He gives me strength, He gives me peace and He is my anchor through every storm. God holds my world in the palm of His hand, where else would I want to be.

It reminds me to hold on to hope, to hold on to grace and to fully let go of everything that I am trying to hold on so tightly to and just surrender to His ways. For His ways are perfect, His timing is perfect and what He has for me is far better then anything that I could come up with on my own.

The more that I sing the words the more I believe in them. The more that I sing that He is the anchor for my soul and that He will never change, the more I believe it.

The more that I sing that His loving hand is always there to guide me, that He is my great redeemer and constant friend and that His mercy and grace always follows me, the more I believe it. Then I can begin to walk in the peace and freedom that those words bring.

I encourage you to listen to the song. The more that you listen and sing the words the more you will believe in them and they will become a comfort for your soul too. You can then begin to walk through your season in the peace and freedom that these words bring.

The long walk home…


I hadn’t been out for a walk in a while and I just wanted to walk and walk and walk. It felt great, but at some point I had to turn around and make the very long journey back home. At the exact point that the realization of now having a long distance to walk home hit me, the sun as if sensing my mood slipped behind the clouds and it shifted from being bright and sunny to dark and gloomy and the cold began to creep in.

Was it really the long walk home that made me feel this way or was that just standing in front of what was really bothering me?  The long walk for my tired body was just a mask for the real issues that I was feeling dark and gloomy over.

Sensing my shift in mood I decided to change the song I was listening to and started to play the song your a good good father and my heart changed. Darkness, gloom and the cold were held at bay by the truth of a loving father who is perfect in all of His ways even in the setting of the sun and the shift in seasons.

As I walked I could see the colours shifting in the ocean and she was moody but she was still beautiful. Your season can be tiring but still beautiful. Say no to the bad mood season and yes to growing in that season. Throw your hands up and worship your way out of it.

The sun had not set on me, it was still there the sun rays peeking out behind the cloud. Still there to guide me back home before the moon and stars made an appearance. On that long walk home I was so distracted by the changing colours reflecting in the ocean and the darling little birds who seemed to be accompanying me on my walk home that I didn’t notice the long journey. It was made pleasant. It gave me more time to think, ponder, reflect and soak in His presence. He really can make all things turn to good.

When I got home my husband had a podcast playing and as soon as I heard it everything in me stopped and payed attention. It was just what I needed to hear, it spoke to the very thing that I had been masking and wrestling with.

I am so thankful to God who pays attention to every little detail in me. That He is able to speak into every little situation, helping me to refocus and to gain wisdom and understanding. I am so thankful that He has helped me to understand that I am powerful and that He has taught me how to take authority over my thoughts and my response to them.

Things will always come against us, trying to steal our joy. Recognise them and fight them off with the truth that God speaks over you. Worship your way out of it.

Praise is a matter of life and BREATH


I love to sing praises to God. Worship time is my favorite time. Worship is how we express our love for God. A time where we let our thanksgiving overflow. Praise and worship is also a powerful weapon in our hands. Praise can bring encouragement, breakthrough, encounters with the Holy Spirit and it can help us to overcome our fears, anxieties and our doubts.

There are so many things in life that try to steal praises from your heart. There is pain, heartache, trials and tribulations that try to steal our joy and the praises from our lips…

…But each of these things brings us into an opportunity to praise God and declare His goodness over our lives. These trials can either make us bitter or better. You see God is bigger than anything that life can throw at you. Not everything that happens in life is Gods will. God is a good God and He only has good things for us because that is His nature.

When you are feeling discouraged, when all the joy has left you and fear and anxiety are beginning to arise, an act of praise is your greatest weapon to overcoming these emotions.

Instead of giving into the feeling of fear start to declare Gods strength and boldness, that He is an ever present help in our time of need. When anxiety is knocking at the door begin to declare that you will not be shaken because through His love we will overcome.

As you start to declare these truths over your life your perspective will begin to change. You will start to see things from heavens perspective and you will be able to pull heaven down to earth.

As you bring praise you position yourself for breakthrough and for encounters with heaven. Your heart and mind will begin to shift and thankfulness will begin to grow. So be encouraged, your praises are powerful. You will overcome the things that life is trying to throw at you as you declare your love for God.

Out of hiding


Out of hiding by Steffany Gretzinger….

Come out of hiding
You’re safe here with Me
There’s no need to cover
What I already see
You’ve got your reasons
But I hold your peace
You’ve been on lockdown
And I hold the key
‘Cause I loved you before you knew it was love
And I saw it all, still I chose the cross
And you were the one that I was thinking of
When I rose from the grave
Now rid of the shackles, My victory’s yours
I tore the veil for you to come close
There’s no reason to stand at a distance anymore
You’re not far from home
I’ll be your lighthouse
When you’re lost at sea
And I will illuminate
No need to be frightened
By intimacy
No, just throw off your fear
And come running to Me
‘Cause I loved you before you knew it was love
And I saw it all, still I chose the cross
And you were the one that I was thinking of
When I rose from the grave
Now rid of the shackles, My victory’s yours
I tore the veil for you to come close
There’s no reason to stand at a distance anymore
You’re not far from home
Keep on coming
And oh as you run
What hindered love
Will only become
Part of the story
Baby, you’re almost home now
Please don’t quit now
You’re almost home to Me

I just love this song by Steffany Gretzinger and I had to share it with you. Read the words and listen to her sing, it is so beautiful. I can just hear heaven crying out baby you are almost home now so please don’t quit now! 

I am in such a busy, emotional and exhausting season at the moment and sometimes I just feel like sitting down and not getting back up again. No more reading, nor more meetings, no more unraveling myself, no more laying myself bare.

As I hear her singing I am encouraged to get back up again, to remember that He has unending love for me, the veil has been torn for me to come close, so draw close. I am encouraged to let go of my fears, the unraveling has its purpose.

I am encouraged to just keep running baby.

The end of another year…


The end of another year is here, my thoughts begin to wander back over the events of this past year and I am amazed by all the things that have taken place in our lives. Our year began with quite a traumatic event in Greg having open heart surgery, Our little princess Emily had her first birthday, we finished renovating our little house by the sea, we packed up and moved to California and William began homeschooling.

This past year has taught me so much. I have learned to have great courage and faith even when I felt like my strength was failing. When Greg was going through his surgery in January I felt as though with one wrong turn my whole world could change forever. I was standing on a corner and I could chose to walk in two different directions. I could take the path marked suffering. A path where I could put up the white flag and say that I was done. Where my hope was left behind and my strength and courage buried in the sand. Or I could take the path marked faith. Where I could chose to stand firm and hold onto my hope. To have hope and faith in my God who is bigger than my circumstances and will uphold me no matter what the outcome may be.

I remember going to church just after Greg had his surgery but was still in hospital.  I remember standing there during worship with Emily on my hip and William by my side. We were singing the song Cornerstone. Singing the words Christ alone, cornerstone, weak made strong in the Savior’s love, through the storm, He is Lord Lord of all. When Darkness seems to hide His face, I rest on His unchanging grace. In every high and stormy gale, my anchor holds within the veil. Words that touched my heart more than they had ever touched me before.

Through this trial my faith was strengthened as friends and family gathered around us and supported us, encouraged us and lifted us up. I felt God close in on us, He was using these people as his divine messengers. They held me up when I no longer could support myself. They were the love of Christ in my life. My God loved me so much, He was my comforter and He provided for me and my family in our time of great need.

I have discovered the importance and power of community. How the people you are walking through this life with can be so valuable. These relationships are where strengths are exchanged. We bring peace to each others chaos, we lend each other strength and uphold one another. They know where you are going and they are going with you. They know your dreams and offer unconditional love and support as they help to launch you into your destiny, into what God has called you to be. I have also learned the value of serving in these relationships. To lay down my life to serve them, to take care of my community so that they are blessed. Serving others is more important then self serving.

I have learned to worship and sing praises always. To sing when I feel like giving up, to sing when I am feeling doubt, to sing when I feel all hope slipping away. There is power in words and what you declare will become. As I stand and sing the words weak made strong in the Savior love, so I will become. As I stand and sing You give life, You are love, You bring light to the darkness. You give hope, You restore every heart that is broken, Great are You, Lord; so He is.

And, most importantly in my journey this past year I have learned to look upon God as a loving father and not as some far off vengeful God who strikes fear in the heart of man. I have come close and seen Him for who He really is, God who is my comforter, who loves unconditionally and shows me his mercy’s everyday. My God who redeemed me, who paid the price for me so that I could walk in freedom and now I am learning how to walk in that freedom. Learning to love myself and see myself the way that my Heavenly Father sees me, to let go of my past – the fears and insecurities that once bound me and learning to walk in the light. Picking up who He created me to be and running with it.

I feel like this list is only a small selection of what I have learned this past year. You never stop learning, you never truly arrive at a destination where you can say that you have discovered all there is for you. Even though this is the end of a calendar year I still feel like I am in the same season which will probably keep on going until we finish up our time here in California. When that time comes who knows where we will be and what we will be doing and learning. One thing I do know is that I am very excited for that next chapter in our lives to begin.